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Anyway i know my text messages to you is getting shorter and shorter or perhaps just cold. Haven't been myself lately maybe because there's 987654321 things on my mind right now. I don't know how to talk to you about how sucky I'm feeling, afraid you will say something bad but you know what happened in the past it still lingers around my lil brain. Partly because i still think i can't forgive you but trust me i really really tried. I don't think anyone been through what I've been through. Don't think anyone would even bother fighting as much as i do. It's such a miracle I'm still standing strong but how much longer, I have no idea. Each time i look at you, I just wish you would cherish me more because if i didn't fight this war. We won't even be holding each other. I'm still waiting for the day you will be grateful instead of taking everything for granted because sometimes it's best to let go. Came across someone blogger, read it all up because of temptations. I realised you were better of with 'them'. I think fighting for you was the biggest mistake I've ever done. Maybe both of us will be happier off on our seperate ways. Nobody enjoy digging out the past but how can one not think of it if they are being neglected all over again. I don't know, I just wanna disappear for a while and come back in a new chapther. I wish i had a memory of a golfish. I just hope before you hurt me again, I wanna remind you how i counted the number of days you will be back and only to find out I'm no longer important, How i just look at you from far when you're with 'them', hoping you will remember me. How i always tried to be there for you even though you met someone new in your life. How i kept hoping for a miracle to happen and even after that those things you kept from me. Those lies, I still give in to you. Still treat you the best, first priortity and everything else you could ask for and yet I'm still no where to stand in your heart. If you're reading, Please can't you see how much I've been through. I don't feel like replying you anymore. When are you going to change? I'm tired.

BETTER OFF ON MY OWN.

Eating is a war.

Damn blur because we were damn 'gan-chiong', afraid we get caught for photo taking.

They said i grow a lot but i doubt so, i feel like i've been stuck in the same size for damn long or maybe its just me. Oh well gotta eat more, gonna wake up early to cook my chicken.
Gym twice today, one in the afternoon and one at night. Abit hardcore but i gotta work harder.
Imma be a big big kid :B

Some say it's not over, Untill it's over but i guess this is really over now.

There's something i gotta say before i let you go.

Listen, When you have fight with him. Sometimes you cry and i feel sad and blue, i become hopeful.

My heart aches secretly then just a hint of your smile can make me feel fine again.

To keep you from finguring out how i feel about you because then we would drift apart.

I hold my breath, Bite my lips. Oh please leave him and come to me.

Baby, Please don't take his hand because you should be my lady. I've been waiting for you for so long.

Please look at me now, When the music starts you will vow to spend the rest of your life with him.

How i prayed every night this day will never come. The wedding dress you're wearing, It's not me standing next you.

You never knew how i felt about you and i hated you so.

Sometimes i wished you would be unhappy. Now i have no more tears left to cry.

When I'm by myself, I talk to you like you're here. I felt so restless every night.

Maybe I've known all along that this would happen. I close my eyes and dream an endless dream.

Baby, Don't hold his hand when he comes to you.

Please be happy with him so that i can forget you. Please forget how miserable i looked.

It's going to unbearably hard for me. For such a long time, I lived in an illusion like a fool.

She is still smiling at me, So brightly at me

Voice.

Damn long ago when my hair was like shit x987654321.
This week is one rollercoaster ride for me but yeah I'm lucky to be able to pick myself up. Anyway after so long, finally i gym 5 times a week but if I'm really going later on it will be 6 times. Imba much? :B
Hopefully can gain weight by next month *fingers cross

GO TO SLEEP NAO AND STOP CRYING D! FUCK!

NOBODY APPRECIATE :{]

They say 'First you will do anything to get her but once she/he is yours you will start taking her/him for granted'

I don't know how some bear to cheat on their partner, perhaps they don't love each other but some are even more confusing they could flirt around, finding other girls/boys but yet they still can't let go of their current partner. Sooner or later people would rather be single than being with a player.

I'm super emotional now after seeing a kitten being abuse to death in Singapore and some China motherfucker roasted a puppy alive. Like what the fuckery is China thinking, this kind of cases has been repeating itself since 987654321 years ago and China isn't doing anything or giving a big fuck about it. Human being is the most disgusting species on Earth don't you think so, I don't know how one can do such a cruel behavior and not feeling any guilty at all and think everything is ok. I fucking don't understand how they can bear when the animals screaming for some god damn mercy. I mean there's no way in hell you guys will ever go to heaven so might as well burn you guys down. Sometimes i wish i could fly to China and cut their guts out! Oh fuckery humans makes me sick.

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Ain't over you.

His socks kinda high! :O

Tonight i will hold on tight before you slip right through my hands

Because everywhere i go and everybody knows they asked me about you

I guess i will have to say, I guess you never feel in love, I guess it wasn't strong enough, I guess i could have been a better person, I guess it wasn't worth any chance

I wish i never fell in love because maybe then it wouldn't hurt so much but i will do it all again

And everytime i think about your eyes your smile your pretty face it drives me wild but now I'm all alone, I'm missing you right now.

What did i do wrong, it hurts me deep inside that you don't want me in your life. Oh why.
Even though you really broke my heart, I'm missing your right now.

Bummer, step into the gym only everyone asked me which microwave i got stuck inside until so burnt. I seriously got no idea if im tan or burnt or whatever but i know it makes me look leaner considering the weight i am nao~

Not over you.

I like this picture a lot. Kekeke~

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Wow time pass damn fast and C coming back tomorrow night, like finally. She better come back with stuffs for me, heh can't believe i asked her to get face mask for me :O

Oh my face is getting better which means no more grumpy me but i'm burn like lobster nao and i wonder what C gonna say when she see me.

#PLKWHOSH

Before sending my mates off.

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Well to kill time i decided to tan, gym and work. I've been feeling depressed due to my face, such in a horrible state nao very much thanks to my allergy. Been spamming plain water until my bladder wanna burst every 1 hour. Oh i'm such in a happy mood other than my face of course, i've finally learn how to spike my hair properly. Heh look so much orzsome, need to shave the sides real soon though but another piece of me feels like its backing out afraid it will turn out ugly since i've never shave before.

I'm off to watch Suite Life Of Zack And Cody :B

IS IT THAT DIFFICULT!? :{

Ok ignore the small pathetic picture but ...

HOLY CRAPPARONI I WANNA GO

Omgoofball damn adorable, certainly worth watching.

Anyway i've been sleeping non stop since Tuesday and worst i only went gym yesterday, oh fuckery how to grow bigger in this kind of state and hopefully there wont be any losers using all the weights tomorrow :{

:B

The only thing i would ever ask for in this world. Who cares about having the sickest car, being the richest kid because if i've got love i would have everything in this world and that makes me the happiest kid.

Over.

I will never forget the 'lie' you kept from me, all those times you treated me like a real fool after what i've done for you. I still don't get how heartless you are to treat me like this and treat someone so much better with someone who isn't worth it at all. I looked back i feel like i'm no match because deep down you know you love the person more. Don't call me ridiculous when you can't even show me that i'm wrong. You're such a loser. I don't know when will you ever come to your senses, fucking hell. I feel like breaking down right now like a baby. I feel like i've been acting someone who i'm not for the past 2 years. Living like as if this is not my life. Couldn't lead a proper life because you're so afraid of what people would think of you if they found out and yet you don't know that i'm still standing on my two feet trying to be strong but the longer i stand the faster i'm gonna walk away. Walk away from this 'lie' we have been hiding. I feel like as if the walls are drawing closer to me, craving to crash me into million pieces. I'm burn out over the weights im trying to carry on my shoulder. The feeling of having to stand miles away, fucking sux to the max. I really don't know how much longer i can take it but i know i'm gonna give up real soon. I just wanna be somewhere i can be myself, really really be myself. Don't care what the world will say. I need to stop holding on something that isn't mine to begin with because eventually it will slip away. I just want to be alone. There's no point if this carry on. It's just sad knowing i'm not worth it, knowing that all the things i wanted to do with you and i couldn't, wait i didn't even have any chance to. I'm done with fighting. Done with giving in and giving chances because it will never work out. I've reach the end zone. I'm sorry, Goodbye.

Cruel world.

I WISH I WAS NORMAL! :(}

Dreamboat.

I rape the replay button for at least 10 episodes of SUITE LIFE ON DECK, it's kinda sad that the series has ended :(}

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Lazy day.

I think my hair sucks big time, now it's taking 987654321 to grow so that i can finally shave my sides! Oh buttocks!

D.

Haha what the shitzel, it's kinda lame but it cracks me up!

8)

Barnacle.

OMGOOFY MUST READ ALL THESE SCENE FROM 'SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS', SWEAR ON MY ARSE IT CRACKS ME UP!

Ain't so easy for me.

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It happens all the fuckery time! :O

Coming right back.

D.

Owl.

This is how i look right now, not sure if i should get a power nap. Went supper with Wenyi at Tenpenis Mall until about 2 plus in the morning, walked home and i swear i was the only one walking on the streets :O. It's good enough that i didn't wet my new pants man. Ok i'm zombie-fied already.

/Note\

If a guy/girl is being friendly to you, that doesn't mean he/she is flirting with you espcially when he/she has someone else in mind. KTHXBAI

STAR AND SPONGE.

The suffering moment when you can't burst your laughter out loud!

Love is dangerous.

After years of sacrifies this and that for you, ok basically everything. Putting you first before everything else, i think it's finally time for me to leave you because even when i'm at my worse you're never there to lend an extra hand for me. I hate that i have to ask you for help from my own mouth because i know you've got no initiative to do so and that you usally complain. 2 years plus of my hard work for you, yet you can't even show any give thanks. I'm so tired of neglecting myself all over again. You don't bloody know when i'm in a need of help don't you, you're so clueless about everything about me. I detest how you could easily forget all the times that i was the one who always give everything up just to get for you what you want or anything that you like. This is how selfish you are. When you have everything you need and can have you forgot about me. Don't fucking say you're sorry when i walk away. I don't deserve all these. I'm really really exhausted from giving in each time i think of all these, tired from giving you countless chance to stop treating me like a piece of trash.

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Never enough.

I HOPE MY BROTHER CAN EITHER GET ONE OF THIS FROM ROME, I WOULD BE FLYING LIKE A G6 IF I GET THE SEA BLUE ONE!

Boyfriend/Girlfriend.

Have you ever had the feeling that you were drawn to someone and there isn't anything they could have said or done.

And everyday i see you on your own, and i can't believe that you're alone.

Give me time you know i'm gonna be there.

Don't be scared to come to put your trust in me, can't you see all i really want to be is yours. Can't fight that, let me down and you know I'm coming right back and i don't care at all what you done before.

Let me take a moment to find the right words so when i say it to you and it ain't something you've heard.

I don't know what type of person you prefer but i know i gotta put myself forward.

See, i think i gotta love that you deserve.