Better Days

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Anyway i know my text messages to you is getting shorter and shorter or perhaps just cold. Haven't been myself lately maybe because there's 987654321 things on my mind right now. I don't know how to talk to you about how sucky I'm feeling, afraid you will say something bad but you know what happened in the past it still lingers around my lil brain. Partly because i still think i can't forgive you but trust me i really really tried. I don't think anyone been through what I've been through. Don't think anyone would even bother fighting as much as i do. It's such a miracle I'm still standing strong but how much longer, I have no idea. Each time i look at you, I just wish you would cherish me more because if i didn't fight this war. We won't even be holding each other. I'm still waiting for the day you will be grateful instead of taking everything for granted because sometimes it's best to let go. Came across someone blogger, read it all up because of temptations. I realised you were better of with 'them'. I think fighting for you was the biggest mistake I've ever done. Maybe both of us will be happier off on our seperate ways. Nobody enjoy digging out the past but how can one not think of it if they are being neglected all over again. I don't know, I just wanna disappear for a while and come back in a new chapther. I wish i had a memory of a golfish. I just hope before you hurt me again, I wanna remind you how i counted the number of days you will be back and only to find out I'm no longer important, How i just look at you from far when you're with 'them', hoping you will remember me. How i always tried to be there for you even though you met someone new in your life. How i kept hoping for a miracle to happen and even after that those things you kept from me. Those lies, I still give in to you. Still treat you the best, first priortity and everything else you could ask for and yet I'm still no where to stand in your heart. If you're reading, Please can't you see how much I've been through. I don't feel like replying you anymore. When are you going to change? I'm tired.